The day my heart exploded.

So what are my excuses now, well i'm still insanely behind on my flight template, it's finals week, oh and my girlfriend of 4 years left me for another guy (Dyke). Not that I care, because today the worst thing ever happened to me today...

So I didn't do to hot on the last aviation exam, the HSI whooped my ass up and down the stairs. So like the good Aviation student I am, I go in for my retake. While that might not sound very exciting, here, I'll liven things up a bit.

If I don't get at least a C on the retake I have to repeat the entire course.

Well thats not really a big deal, I can handle this, I step into his office politely ask if he's available now, says sure thing, hands me the retake and invites me to sit down and take it at his desk. I happily oblige, because I have nothing to worry about, I spent the better part of the night studying the HSI and situational awareness, at least 3 hours total. I can read them backwards, forwards, in the dark and with a monkey on my back, an angry one. So i'm not worried in the least bit, I sit down, look over the test and that's when my heart lept into my throat and then back down into my stomach where it drilled a hole through my spleen.

It was 10 questions.....multiple choice.

Not a single damn HSI interpretation question. Granted I read through the rest of the material, but that accounted for probably about 20-15% of my study time. So here's where i'm sitting at, I've got 10 questions to answer, can only get 2 wrong, pretty much didn't study any of this and if I don't rock this out i'm taking summer school....oh joy.

First 3 questions, BAM BAM BAM, instant easy Q's. 5 more and i'm rocking the casba. I fill out the 4th with a little bit of hesitation, then rock on and hit 4 more, BAM BAM BAM BAM. Hell i've got a shot at this. What are the last 2? Oh simple true and false, but i've seen these before, I had them on the last test! OMG!!!! I got the first one wrong and then 2nd one right!!! EASY A!

So what did I put the first time?

The party in my head just came to a grinding fucking hault. I could not remember what I put the first time. So was the first one true and the 2nd one false? or were they both false? or both true? Well now my heart was beating so fast I couldn't discern the beats from one another. This was it, my summer, my career, in 3 minutes or less. I hastily picked True and True. Turned it over and looked over all my answers, I couldn't afford a mistake here, obviously. I made the motion to turn it into him, stopped....

I changed 3 Answers, all 3 of the ones I was questioning, the 4th one and the last 2. The last 2 now being false and false. I passed it to him across his desk, my heart was beating so fast I thought i'd go into cardiac arrest, bust out the paddles and apply the juice, we're gonna need to shock this kid. He looked it over quickly, then reached into his desk to grab his red pen. It's alright, we have to break a few eggs to make an oml-.......

He just marked the 3rd one wrong.

One of my for sure answers, was just marked wrong....All I can think of now is that I hope my Dad leaves a little bit of my face intact for Mom after he disembowels me and chokes me with my own intestines. I'm gonna die, I don't wanna go to Bismarck tomorrow. He continued the march of the red pen...past the first one I was questioning, talk about saved by gut, the change paid off. Now I just need to get one of those last 2 right and i'll be home free, maybe it's not so bad. He flipped it, looked it over then flipped it back over. I DID IT!!!! and only 1 wrong! Oh shit he just flipped it back over.

150 JOULES, CLEAR!!! *application of the paddles*

He ran his pen over my answers of the last 2 quickly, read them over, then flipped it back to the front, "Good job, only 1 wrong, don't forget the final tomorrow at 10:15!"

My heart has now exploded, because it hurts, ALOT, what else could it be? I somehow stumble out of the office, and make my way towards the exit and my car...well at least I don't need to study block 5 for the final! I definitely don't need to go through that again.